LOSING MY AIR CONDITIONING

April 12 2022. For weeks I have been hearing about some Jupiter Neptune conjunction. In Pisces, apparently. Some once in a lifetime (166 years) event in our solar system that is supposed to be an unprecedented big shift. Many influencer and bloggers have started guided mediations, classes, blogs and preparations to maximally benefit from the momentum. And I have ignored all of it. Astrology and me have a Love-hate relationship. And it is just too much to keep up. GIve me animal wisdom over planetary movement anytime.

Somehow I have gotten tired of all the predictions and spiritual bullshit that keeps showing up on my IG feed, and which either makes me feel like I am missing out or am just not getting it. Sometimes with these “Portals” (dont get me started) it’s like suddenly everyone is an expert.
So I went into ignoring it all and that actually worked pretty well. So far.

“and then my Air Conditioning breaks down, and I just start laughing”

It is only when i drive to the beach to meet with a former colleague for lunch that I realise what an unusual day it has been. Tomorrow I will be in a Shamanic Ceremony linked to Element Water. For three full days. A healing journey into myself. In surrender to the Water, to the plan medicine.
Fitting place to be at a beach today then, I think, somewhat ironically. Water, Sea, Reflection of Sky and Sunlight, Jupiter, Neptune, Pisces and more water, fish, and sand. I smile, check a mental box - ok connected to this conjunction thing - check).

When I meet my colleague we realise that actually this is a very special meeting, becuase of how randomly it was arranged after 4 years of not being in touch.

After lunch I realise I didn’t bring my laptop, and smile. A little wink from the universe. The efficient worksession I had planned is off the list. So all I can do is nothing. Ease into the moment, and surrender to a more relaxed afternoon than I had planned. Surrender starts now.

After lunch I just walk unto the beach. And there find a card with a Hummingbird. The bird of the sun. Of joy, of wonder, of self care, of feeding on beauty. Of Light. I thank Hummingbird for shedding some Light on the whole situation.

I sit. I take a breath and take in the moment. Bring myself to be fully present. When I later walk into the water, I see the reflection of the sun on the water. Where Element Fire meets Element Water. The masculine meets the feminine. Right there, in the sea. In the Middle of everything. The Air above, the Earth below. Surrender and Balance. And all the tiredness, sludge, darkness of my post-covid recovery just falls away. The sea just takes it.

I feel light. And intense gratitude.

We are in a period where lots of people are Becoming Conscious. Are doing work to find themselves. But that is all BS. Very convenient for the industry, the mind and the ego. more courses, more time, more sessions. More training, more guru’s more retreats.
While, really, healing can happen in an instant. By surrendering to the moment, By letting go. By releasing any plans, any actions, and just sit. By being fully present. And just be. Water washes clean, water carries, water flows. Water heals.

Water is the Element of the feminine energy. Of Flow. The ultimate feminine principle of receiving. Of opening up. Of being present. Of not-knowing. And I am at the place where that feminine energy meets the masculine energy of Jupiter. The Sun. The power of potential and possibilities.

I am not sure if I want to laugh or cry. I do both. I fill up with healing. with Love. with remembering. I realise that this is how I do life. How I learn. How I connect with astrological events like this ‘in certain circles pretty infamous‘ conjunction. I completely ignore them and then suddenly in the here and Now, in Real Life, they just hit home and show me their intention and their power.

On the way back in the car, still in awe, I switch on the air conditioning.

It doesn’t work. Having been working with reflection, synergies, symbolism and synchronicity for a while…. I get a hunch that this might mean something. “Ok” I say out loud, “So my Air Conditioning breaks down, in my car (which is auto in Dutch). What does that mean…” and I just start laughing out loud. The conditioning. The old patterns. Of element Air. The fixed thinking, old beliefs and mental models. They are broken. The conditioning of my Air Element doesn’t work automatically anymore. Time to open the windows. Bring fresh air straight from the source.
Free air that doesn’t go through pipes and tubes. THis I realise is the integration of te previous AIR Ceremony. And the bridge to the next chapter.
I laugh again. Thank you Universe.

No more Air Conditioning. Let’s bring in the Water.

HOW I STARTED MAGIC ON EARTH

It is August 2020. I go to the Chambre of Commerce to register my own company. An intuitive action. Following a hunch. making something real. “What's the name of your company?” asks the Chamber of Commerce man. “Magic on Earth” I say. He looks at me confused: “So are you going to perform magic tricks?” “No, I try to answer confidently. This is about a platform for sharing the magic of life. It is very quiet on the other side of the plexiglass screen. Still, proud and excited I come back home. I app my parents to share the birth of my company. And yes there is love and yes they show interest, but there is no understanding. And I don’t even know if I understand it myself. So I take myself on a vision quest, three days alone in nature.

“This is a platform for sharing the magic of life.”

Shaping Magic on Earth. Sitting in silence in the dunes. Writing on the beach for hours. Meditating lying in the sand. What is it that wants to be manifested through me? I draw. I doodle and I write and as long as I'm on my own frequency it seems right. But as soon as I come home and people ask me, I can't explain it anymore. So I do what I have done when it gets tough. I withdraw. I start doubting the idea myself and the concept, and I continue on the plan a bath corporate job wing. And then I take part in sweat lodge ceremony. Eagle Lodge us. My ancestors, the element, nature. Ahe Mitakyue Oyasin. To all my relatives. I am related to everything. That is where I wake up.

CEREMONIES

Six months later I do my first shamanic ceremony at “in the Heart of Change”. Now that I am in connection with my heart I feel this is the right place. And that's how it happens. the ceremony opens me up to the magic and the wisdom I have always known. Divine feminine wisdom, earthly wisdom, Truth. Magic. And very Down to Earth. This is where I should be creating. On Earth.
No spiritual searching. No waiting for the light to strike. No guides or angels for me.

Three months and many meditations later I am being called, I have no other way to explain it, to continue my work in a ceremony. And that is where I get to experience all of the magic. One by one the totem animals come to visit me. I become one with their energy there love their wisdom and their messages. And then I receive a gift earth magic. As a pink and violet lightning bolt it enters me. Dragon power. Even Drake's. Wolves intuition. Ancestor magic. It isn't fake, or even spiritual. It feels real and earthly and primal and true. OK I say. Yes. Yes, to everything and I decide to give it my all. Based on not knowing based on trust based on following the energy. What wants to be created through me? A few months later I am full time entrepreneur. Out of the Golden Cage which I was still standing in with one leg. On with the wings. I see them on my holiday in Italy. Big blue angel wings. I feel the August Lion power. I go look for and find he wisdom and heritage of the Italian people before the Romans to go over. The beauty of the land. The symbols.

Back from holiday September 2021 I hire a business coach who is going to expose and mirror my bullshit patterns and sabotage ways. She's radically honest. And tuned into the same field. I also hire a designer for company logos and website - first for the ‘Linked-in version’ of the story. The corporate version. But no inspiration comes for three months. I do the trials, I get my first customers, but it isn’t in flow with a higher plan. There is me trying hard to get this on paper, but the universe isn’t having it. So after a three month waiting period I tell Alexandra, the designer: “Change of plans: we are going to create Magic on Earth. Not the Linked-in offer. The actual Magic. A platform where I get to share nature’s magic, Mother Earth’s Wisdom, and the planet’s wonders. Pass it on, just as I have received it. Onto you.

Welcome back.