The Power of Now is here.

Some evening in April 2020. I am on the floor in my home office -  the room I haven't been using for any work for more than a year. Because my body decided in April 2019 to stop functioning. To give up. To send me the strongest message possible. To not be able to hold or grasp anything anymore. To not be able to stand without holding onto a table top or back of a chair. Burned out. A conclusion and acceptation I could only own after a neurological MRI, various hospital meetings and some desperate sessions with the family doctor. People like me wouldn’t get burn-outs.

So now, about a year later, I'm on the floor on my yoga mat because the “into the heart compassion training” (a mindfulness 3.0 that will bring me from my carefully and thoroughly NLP-ed mind to my heart space) is happening via zoom - we’re in Corona Lockdown no 1. And Evelyn our teacher is leading a loving meditation and it's our last session. I am in my own bubble. She's guiding us towards our hearts. In connection. Loving presence.

“Soft surrender.”

Where are a few months ago these words would cause my eyebrows to rise rather cynical and itchy I realize this is become my new nature like I've learned a new language I've asked always spoken not sure. Remembered. From within myself. Then the music sound the power of love is here now the power of now he's here now the power of you and me is here to create magic on earth. And everything opens. This is it, I feel in my whole being. Everything flows. My tears on my cheeks. My blood through my body. My desire, my way, My purpose. I have no idea what this is but this is it. Now what? It is 2020, the year in which everyone went bad and I'm still in the middle of my burn-out. Magic? On Earth? How?

Every night I go for a walk listening to this songs, and other songs about being light, about having skin in the game, and about the power to create Magic on Earth. I write. I meditate. “Show me” becomes my new mantra. But nothing comes. Every day I walk with this song in my ears, full of emotion and full of questions. Sometimes crying, sometimes singing, but always: Show me.

And then I take a decision, like suddenly I know. I will just start. Create urgency and see from there. Create from not-knowing. From trust.

I make an appointment with the Chamber of Commerce. And register my company name. Magic on Earth.

And so it begins.